Night

Nothing feels so right as sleeping forever

I want understanding a sign of something more to this world.

Door

My mind has become my only escape. To have the path to another world to myself inside of me is something I cannot believe. When I am alone I am myself.

Nice guy trying to be bad or bad guy trying to be nice

Fear has much more control of me than I care to admit. The fear of being alone has made me manipulative to get people to stay by my side. It's sad that deep inside I'm still that little boy that is afraid to be alone and what friends he does scares off by being obsessive.

Behind the Mirror

To lose ones own soul sounds horrible to me but like an addict I still continue lose a bit every day, even though I know what it is doing to me. I've lost a lot of my strength, I see less of myself in the mirror than in my past. I see a sad, stubborn man with fear wrapped around his neck choking the life out of him. I run to my dreams at night because I cannot control my life's dream. I look back at past wondering who was that kid that had so many questions and never got to his true potential. He gave up before any of his dreams became real not for himself but to make life a little bearable to others.