Wrong side

I woke up with such anger in me and the question i cant answer is why?  I hate losing control and i don't want to be forgotten. I know these are things that are bound to happen. the world tends ti forget all and it also does not kneel for anyone. I cannot think my way out of this. Every bandage that i have put on to stop my insanity has been that only bandages. I don't know how long i can manage this life i am really getting weaker in holding back these thoughts. To sleep and free my mind of this world is the only thing i have to  look forward to.